Hey beautiful people!
This blog is an answer to a question many of you have asked me several times;
From where do I get the wisdom and motivation to write and inspire others, while being in excruciating pain myself?
Here, let me just explain to you a glimpse of what’s going on in my life right now!
In addition to having terrible episodes of pain, migraine, muscle cramps, twitching and frequent occurrence of restless legs, I am also undergoing anxiety and depression.
I am sure your head must be on a whirl as to why am I telling all of it to you, on a blog which is meant to deliver beautiful motivational content.
True that and probably that’s why I am taking you on a tiny tour to a day in the life of someone suffering from an incurable chronic illness!
For last 3 days, without even a second of break, I am feeling as if my neck and head is being stabbed by a bunch of sharp knives.
My lower back feels like it’s kept on a hot stove.
My shoulders as if they are being shot multiple times by sharp painful bullets.
My feet and fingers feel as if they are being hammered with huge nails.
My upper back feels like it’s broken.
My middle back feels like it’s being beaten up by many rods together over and over again.
The only difference is that it’s invisible.
I look stunning. I look beautiful.
Or in your words, I look ‘Normal’.
Either crying or twisting and turning in an attempt to ease the incurable needle prickling pain in every inch of my body.
Ofcourse, I take tens of pills at a time as my doctor prescribed but all it does is cause many other side effects.
Now imagine all of that happening to someone continuously every day for last four years.
Doesn’t seem real isn’t it?
Well, that’s what the doctors say too;
I remember one of them telling me that something of that kind doesn’t exist, just go back and do your chore.
Thankfully some of our Indian doctors are gems who knew what it was and who were kind enough to admit that it will never go away.
You must also know that day after tomorrow, I have my ticket booked to leave for my college, pack everything up, and head towards another new city for another new experience in my life, teaching Maths, Physics and Chemistry to a class full of around 200 most brainy scholars from across India.
And then I will have to come back to college, clear my semester exams and head towards some of the schools in Bangalore running under Teach for India to deliver motivational talks.
How will I do that?
How do I keep my head high and keep moving even when I am surrounded by miseries all around!
What helps me stand out and not give up even when my body is undergoing unbearable pain and when my brain has convinced me to go kill myself to end it all?
This is what I tell myself and to everyone else who is finding it hard to find their way back on track!
Close your eyes, take a deep breath and listen to me.
Yes, I know it shouldn’t have happened this way.
But it did.
And you can’t get out of it.
Start it all over again?
Dump the whole idea down because you think you can’t make it ever and you are convinced that you will never be able to make a difference?
That’s what happens to most of us in times of failure and despair.
But thankfully, things do not remain same always!
So here’s the thing.
Every moment from now onwards till infinity is unpredictable and it’s all yours.
You can still turn them into gold by working your ass-off and ignoring all those who are trying to put you down.
Every one who has made it big, have had to go through this bullying and self-doubt.
Don’t listen to them!
It’s only you who is going to make the difference, and you better not forget that.
People who work hard with true intentions, always get their wishes fulfilled sooner or later.
I know it’s easier said than done, but these words of motivation are coming from someone who is physically fighting every second to stand, to smile and to exist.
No matter what, never give up.
It’s in these times of failure and depression, when everyone else is busy giving up, a winner decides to get up and keep going because they strongly believe in what they want and why they want it.
That spark, is what turns the whole thing around.
You are going to make it, just like they did.
The only condition is that it’s going to take tremendous amount of effort, sweat and push even when your faith in yourself would be an all time low!
Remember to never ever let that spark die.
Strength and Love. 😊
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